Love Awe Wonder…

Living Life Filled with Love, Awe and Wonder


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Our Shadow

Seasons of Life are like our shadow..
We know who we are, we believe what we want, we see what we see, we long for our hearts desire…

And yet sometimes seasons in life can look so dark and lifeless …

Knowing what we see on the outside of ourselves in that form of a shadow is so different than our hearts desires….

A shadow…
A representation of us… The outline of our being, a void in all it’s glory…
The shadow seen, empty with no details, just a lifeless shape that represents our own unique being…

There is so much more to all of us, our depth, our yearnings, our hope, our dreams… All represented by the present shadow that forms in the sunlight…

What do you see when you see your shadow?

You can be anything you can imagine, You can have anything you can hope for, you can believe in all your dreams and watch them all come true..

You and your very own shadow!

In awe of wondering!

written 5.2012 repost 9.2014

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In The Middle…

When you are “in the middle” of something you get a 360 degree prospective… And unless you are “in the middle” you may not understand or have empathy. Life has many different experiences, so many that we may never experience them all… And therefore may not have a true understanding of some life situations… I believe that’s where judgement comes in for some. Thinking they know what they believe from afar but not having been “in the middle” to truly see the details of what’s around them…

Love comes in many different forms. Love for others, love for animals, love for the elderly, love for the less fortunate and so on and on… For example some people may not understand how people could love cats or love caring for strangers… We are all the same, love is an emotion that comes from a place deep within our hearts and sometimes is unexpected…

Two people fall in love… Two people know they are in love but can’t show their love outwardly because of what the world may think… Ruled by a judgmental and separated society…
Those who have a need to be right and therefore separate instead of connect with others. Acceptance is a key for spreading love…

I am personally at a place in life where life lessons are priceless. The passing of my mother, and the realization of what truly is important only came after being “in the middle” of the whole situation…

My sister married her wife this past weekend… Again, I was in the middle of witnessing a beautiful celebration, which many may not understand and judge… Life has it’s moments and it’s up to each of us to embrace the incredible people around us… So next time you are in a situation that may be a new experience for you look around, really look around and see it from a different perspective… From in the middle….

Love Awe and Wonder….

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Just One More Time…

My mothers passing has been a life changing experience for me… A “game changer” sort of speak! The game of life has been taken for granted daily. Nothing I could have helped without the understanding of death. I find myself wanting to hug my mom “just one more time”, as I wake out of a sound sleep in tears… It’s been a huge reality check of life’s priority and the importance of family, love and acceptance of others. Those little things that used to set me off or would consume me no longer do… Almost as if there’s a more important daily message to share with others with little said… I watched as a lovely woman became very impatient sitting next to me as we were boarding our plane… There were no connections to catch, it was our final destination. But the situation became obvious that another young woman needed extra help being seated, due to some kind of accident which made her very physically challenged… As I watch the first woman sigh and become visually impatient I leaned over to her and quietly asked “do you have a connecting flight?” I already knew her answer was no… We made eye contact and she began to thank me for allowing her to be aware of how selfish and impatient she had become… We smiled and laughed and I said “we all have a story to tell.” My story was the peace I have after my mothers passing and the happiness I felt heading to see my sister marry her partner…. Her story, a Breast cancer survivor! A moment in time both our life’s were touched by simply being aware of others around us. I am finally beginning to realize how precious life truly is. “Just one more time” isn’t possible for my mother and I, but it is possible for those around me today!

Hug someone you love today… Truly be present and hug them!

Living life filled with Love, Awe and Wonder…


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Processing Forever Gone…

Processing my mothers passing is bitter sweet… I am so thankful she passed peacefully in her sleep next to my dad after 63 years of marriage. But to process “forever gone” is difficult.

My mind which is filled with wonder, is thinking a lot more than normal…
Dad is now living with me, which I am honored to be able to care for such a loving man. My mourning is on hold while I make sure I help my father get through this difficult season of his life. Probably his last season….

There are so many emotions running through my heart and mind. The reality of the life cycle and aging should make this easy… But it doesn’t…

My own mortality is contemplated durning this process. The years that have passed, the mistakes that have been made, the ugliness that I’ve allowed in my life… All seems senseless now.

The gift of aging gives wisdom , a gift only to be received through the years… Wisdom in knowing death is inevitable, life is short, no matter your age, love lives on through those we touch…

My life has been filled with Love, Awe and Wonder, something I am truly thankful for… My moms spirit lives on through those she touched. After reading many cards I have found a common theme, she made everyone feel welcomed into her home… A home that is difficult to walk back into right now.

Her death makes me wonder about life and the presence of being present…
Love those you are around
Be in Awe of the blessings you are given.
And never stop Wondering about life, people, and how you can make a difference….

Love, awe and wonder….

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It’s My Turn…

I watch as his broken heart aches
Having the only answer I know…
To Love him and care for him.
It’s my turn
To tuck him in at night
Assure him everything will be ok…
A sweet kiss
A look into his eyes…
Nothing more needs to be said.
It’s my turn
To be there in his time of need,
To listen to
Talk with
And Represent Hope….
There’s a hole in his heart
It may never be fixed…
Only time
can help mend it just a little bit…
It’s my turn
To love
Care for
Reassure him…
A man who was always there for me…
There’s a sweetness knowing
It’s my turn
To care for…
My father
While he waits to meet my mother again…
It’s my turn!

9.21.14
Aweider
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I Saw Your Dash Today

1925 – 2014
I saw your dash today
And I couldn’t help but say…
Thank you mom for your love
All those wonderful memories you created for us…
The day passed by
Tears in my eye
A moment of life’s completion
Called death…
Life is not possible without death
Death is the completion of life…
A life filled with love and memories to cherish…
Memories, a gift given at the most precious moments in time…
Time spent with you mom, were sometimes challenging…
Most of the time,
A gift to always be cherished…
I don’t know what my tomorrow will bring…
Today, I have yesterday’s memories to hold on to and always remember your heart…
Its love for me and others…
I cherish you this day,
as I remember our yesterday’s…
I saw your dash today
And I remembered all those wonderful memories you gave me…
I love you mom
You will be missed…
Your dash will never be forgotten!

9.18.14
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I Wonder

I wonder what today will bring
and how I will feel
Seeing my mother for the very last time…
I wonder what emotions will surface,
And If joy will arise through this difficult day.
I wonder… will I choose to celebrate or Isolate…
I wonder what will happen to my dad,
How he will be and if his broken heart will ever heal…
I wonder if mom is looking down with a huge smile
Or has her soul entered a new life of living…
I wonder how I will handle processing the loss of my mother, and the care for my father…
I wonder what the future holds, about life and death and the meaning of it all…
Today is a day of wonder…

Aweider
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9.16.14

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I Wonder…

I wonder about life
Its stillness,
the complications of what surrounds.
I wonder about joy,
All the pain and suffering.
I wonder why few are chosen
And even fewer appreciate their blessings…
I wonder why some give
And others only take.
I wonder about peace within,
And spreading peace throughout the world…
I wonder…
is
Love possible
Hope a cure
Faith the answer?
And I wonder…
Why?
Why not just accept others
Embrace our differences
And
Love one another!

There’s a river that flows through our souls…
May your love move through your day like water running through a stream…

Aweider
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9.4.14

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What Would You Do?

I failed! I stood there and did nothing! I watched as a father grabbed his six year old daughter and abused her physically! I stood helpless, speechless, stunned with NO balls to challenge this disgusting man! I did nothing! I’m sick over what I witnessed and sicker over the fact I did not intervene!
I failed the test of “what would you do?” Except this wasn’t a test… It was for real!
After the fact I thought I should have video taped him and threaten to post it on U tube…. I just was paralyzed at what I was witnessing… NEVER AGAIN will I ever stand by and not do something NEVER! I’m sick over this poor little girl I pray someone somewhere will save her from her abusive father!