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December 31, 2014
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Bombarded…

The past several months have flown by… Filled to the brim with life circumstances, I couldn’t help but be in a state of wonder…so many emotions, so much life flying by. Bombarded came to mind this morning as I wondered why the lack of creativity for my writing… And then… I saw this post!

The hearts of course caught my attention, but the words “write a good one” made me wonder… Will I ever complete that dream? That book that I was so passionate about, I wonder how life got in the way, or did it? Which has me wondering, Life is the way…
Today being the “last blank page” of the past 365 days and tomorrow being the first blank page of 2015 I wonder how the next book will read… Each chapter connects to the next, some have me on edge, while others have me in wonder about life. Sometimes we are “bombarded” with life circumstances out of our control… The constant is… We All have life circumstances, We All have life choices to overcome, We All choose our own destiny…
So, this last blank page from the past 365 days, how will it be written? What will tomorrow’s blank page have on it? Will you make any changes to your non fiction novel?
Even if you feel bombarded by life and its circumstances, how will you fill your blank pages?

Happy New Year
Happy writing
Happy reading
Happy life….
What will be seen in 2015?

December 20, 2014
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Too Early… Too Fast!

There’s something very disappointing when Christmas is a week away and there is nothing left “Christmasy” in the stores…
Everyone complains Christmas comes to early! I wonder why Christmas disappears so fast… I’ve noticed about two weeks before Christmas, stores start to remove Christmas displays…

This all has me wondering… What is more upsetting? For me, I say.. “Bring it on” it can never come to soon… Especially the Joy and giving of the season! But when the tinsel and lights are gone so fast, there is something very empty about the “nothing” that is left…
So I say… Enjoy the whole season, as soon as the decorations go up… It seems they come down just as fast!

Wishing you a Very Merry Christmas before the last light is sold, all the trees are taken down and the Christmas cookies are now in the shape of a heart for Valentine’s Day!

Hohoho!

December 18, 2014
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Big World… Big Wonders

I woke up wondering about death this morning… It’s purpose, meaning and grasp of understanding what it’s all about. Losing a parent brings you to a place of wondering…

As memories flash through my mind and the reality of forever gone comes into play I can’t help but wonder… There’s a void in my mind, a black hole… Empty with no concept of even beginning to process the death of my mother. Reality says… She’s gone, thankfully died peacefully in her sleep. I look at a picture, read an old Christmas card, and I can’t help but wonder how to process life and death.

Daily I move forward at full speed ahead caring for my dad, knowing it will just be a matter of time to process the inevitable…
Embracing every moment with him, thanking God for this time and yet I still wonder…

Life, its meaning, its purpose… Death, its meaning and even its purpose…
We all will experience losses over a lifetime… And then there is the final loss, our own!

I wonder about the sadness in life. Those who are filled with hate, anger, jealousy and rage…
We all certainly feel those emotions on occasion, but for those who live filled with darkness I am saddened for their life. The precious gift we all have been given, the gift of life… We choose how to spend those few precious years here on earth during this lifetime. Somedays are filled with peace and those days when I feel the darkness, I try to step back, breathe and realize the gift that surrounds me… My life!

I have been blessed with incredible Christmas memories left behind by a mother who loved her children… I smile as I write with tears in my eyes knowing there won’t be a traditional “in front of the Christmas tree kiss” this year for my parents… My dad stays stoic with his emotions as the reality of my mothers passing sets in for all of us.

There’s a big world which makes me have big wonders…. Life, death and their purpose…

As the Christmas season is upon us, I am reminded once again of Gods gift, the life and death of his son Jesus. The birth, the life and the death celebrated by believers in the Christian faith…
The ultimate wonderment!

Living life filled with love, awe and wonder….

December 17, 2014
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Takers and Givers

Years ago my 8 year old daughter said to me… “Mommy, there are givers and takers in this world and you are a ….” no wait… she said there are ” talkers and doers” and mommy you are a doer! Well, non the less, the point was profound coming from an 8 year old!

I saw this picture this morning posted on Facebook “TAKE” what you need. I thought great idea, but then I wondered about Giving what you already have… So those people who are givers and not just takers need to share what they possess. If we all just take, who will be left to give?

So this holiday season give some love, hope, peace, beauty… GIVE of yourself, it’s the most precious gift you will ever give….(you’ll never have to stand in a long return line!)

Happy Holidays filled with Love, awe and wonder….

December 12, 2014
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I Sit…

I sit quietly in the still of the early morning hours…
Wondering,
About wondering…
Moments pass through my mind
Questioning decisions from the past,
Wondering about each perfect life lesson learned along the way…
So many stories
So many blessings
So much growth from pain…
Remembering being in the midst of it all.
Each time, wondering when it would end,
How I would survive…
I sit
Listening to the stillness of the morning
Counting my blessing
Wondering what I will learn next
Lessons, all from life experiences
Growth, should I choose…
All from life’s awareness…
Wondering as I sit
Knowing the blessings that surround me are from the heavens above…
God is just
God is merciful
God is us…
Wondering in the still of the early morning
Choices we choose…
Peace
Love
Joy
Anger
Hate
Sadness
Wondering why?
The world isn’t just filled with peace, love and joy…
In the stillness of the morning I sit wondering…
Filled with peace
Aware of hate
Embracing love
Releasing anger
Feeling joy…

Aweider
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12.12.14

December 11, 2014
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Oh Christmas Tree…

I couldn’t help but smile when I saw this post on Facebook. Of course I felt bad for my friend for a brief moment, but then I just had to smile again!

I wonder often about this holiday season, it’s real meaning and how it’s gotten so out of control. I can’t even point a finger, I’m totally part of the madness! Not so much shopping and more shopping (although being a first time grandma I couldn’t help myself) but the whole crazy package of what we do to “celebrate” the season… All to often the “real” meaning of the season comes in last! Santa seems to be first for most, and again I have to admit I’ve been caught up in all the tinsel and lights!

I wonder about my own childhood, the baby Jesus, church and all our traditions… As I’ve aged I wonder more and more about the Christmas season. It’s certainly not like I remember as a child and now there are little grandchildren to create memories for…

So as the new traditions are created, perhaps for dessert on Christmas a birthday cake for the baby Jesus this year… In Addition, for me there is something so magical about Santa and Rudolf with his nose so bright… My own childhood comes alive!

But let’s remember what’s truly important…

Teaching children how to give and not just receive should be a priority… A great lesson to tie Santa and Gods gift of his son the baby Jesus during this Christmas Season.
Give love
Give love
Give love
However that looks for you…. Give love!
And please remember to tie down your Christmas tree! Oh Christmas Tree!

Thanks for the smile Lisa!

Living this Christmas season filled with love, awe and wonder…

December 3, 2014
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Aliveness

A wonderful friend near to my heart recently shared this quote with me..

“In truth, our aliveness depends on our ability to sustain wonder.”
M. Nepo

It made me really think..,
How I’ve never strived to feel aliveness but always searched for Happieness or Joy. Feeling the Aliveness within made me stop and ask myself
“What exacly makes me feel that feeling of Aliveness”? Since by nature I am a wonderer, I was extremly drawn to finish this statement:
“In truth, our aliveness depends on”…
I love what the author wrote “our ability to sustain wonder.”
Our ability To sustain Wonder!
I just love that…

So after wondering myself…
What my own personal aliveness depends on, this is what came to my heart:
“My aliveness depends on …deep meaningful connections, which allows me to wonder about life, be in awe of others, and love the world that surrounds me” ….Amy

I’ve always known how I came alive around people but never realized my “Connections with others truly made me feel an Aliveness which is my happiness and joy….
Oh, the simplicity of Wonder….

So let me ask…
What does your Aliveness depend on?

Written 11.17.11 a.weider
Repost 12.3.2014

December 2, 2014
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Too Much on Your Plate?

I’ve been told for several years now that have too much on my “plate”… Or that I have too many plates spinning… And without a doubt… I do!!!

After rushing back home after a funeral only to rush back out to a women’s Christmas gathering, (after feeding the family of course)…
This is what happened…

My appetizer landed on the floor! I won’t pretend no F bombs went off… Because they did! And my blood pressure from the stress of my current situation went through the roof! But I was able to Walk Away… And an angel cleaned up my mess for me…

I couldn’t help but wonder about the metaphor of the situation at hand… A plate overloaded comes “Crashing Down”… Leaving a mess for others to cleanup. I was fortunate enough to have “Santa’s Helper” around to help me clean up my mess. But with most situations we get ourselves into, we are left to clean up our own messes alone!

Life and all we are expected to handle gets way out of control on many occasions. I believe in todays world and its fast pace technology everything is just getting more and more out of control!
We are moving at a faster speed than over before and yet we still can’t keep up!

With all our modern convinces we are suppose to have more time on our hands right? I believe we have a lot less time to enjoy what’s really important… And sometimes that’s as simple as just being present to the moment and breathing in and out!

As the crockpot filled with freshly cook sausage and homemade (ok jarred) sauce went flying out of my hands (in slow motion I might add) I couldn’t help but be present to my ahh moment of… Enough is enough!!!

I made my party, enjoyed the women present, and even had a hearty laugh sharing the picture of my appetizer that never made it…. Most importantly… I learned a few very important lessons…
It’s time to stop and be still…
It’s time to remove things off my plate…
It’s time to set my priorities…
It’s time breathe and be present to this beautiful holiday season… And continue to give thanks!

I am thankful I have a home, money to buy food, electricity to cook an appetizer, loved ones to help clean up and people I can call my friends…
What a blessing!

Love Awe Wonder…

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