I struggle with “doing”…. And continue to search for “being”.  Some days I feel I need to do… Do what? Is unknown to my soul and yet knowing I must start with “just being” keeps me in wonder… Be still, be content, be present, be happy… Be, Be, Be… To be or not to be is still the question…

Part of me keeps wanting to do! Do what is unsure… “Do” tends to give  the illusion of accomplishment, fulfillment, acceptance all part of the never ending search for ones purpose. 

I watch as my 91 year old dad even struggle with his purpose at his age. The search for ones personal purpose seems to be universal. No matter our age we all seem to starve for own life purpose.

Is a career enough to satisfy someone’s hunger to know their life’s purpose?  I’ve met many people who have great careers and still wonder what their purpose is.  Finding your purpose in life is a question which makes me wonder if there is ever an answer.  We all have so much to be thankful for and yet…there is that small voice of wonder… The song ” What’s is All About Alfie” rings over and over in my head… “What’s it all about Alfie is it just for the moment we live?” …. I cant help but wonder…

 As my big brother turned 60 today and my dad turned 91 last month, their age seems to resonate deeply with my emotions. Where did the years go?  How did I get here so fast? Maybe the loss of my mother and her 90th birthday this week keeps my mourning process spinning out of control.

Time continues to heal all wounds, and yet its that same time in some cases that cause the pain. Past memories of time gone by, the unknown of the time of tomorrow, and today, time is passing by again.  I often wonder if others wonder the same things I do? I would like to believe they do… So as I continue to find my purpose I will just “do” what I love, write and be present to “just being”

Living life filled with Love, awe and wonder lots and lots of wondering…