There lies a stillness of the unknown,
My Heart Named George
There is something so magical about 2 year olds… I fell more in love with my first grandson recently… His nature, joy for life, inosenence, and just darn cuteness melts my heart!
He loves to be told stories… And could listen to stories for hours. As I was putting him to bed last night, meme was telling lots of stories to him. Then he looked me in the eyes and said…”meme tell me a story about when George gets big” well you can imagine my eyes filled with tears as his innocent eyes pierced my heart.
I have to say the love I feel for my little George is beyond any love I have ever known… Knowing how quickly these years will fly by I try very hard to cease the moment which will be fleeting memories tomorrow..
2019
Not sure how I got here but the reality is it’s “the future”
Last year when we rang in 2018, I couldn’t help but wonder how close we were to the year 2020. There were years when I was a kid and we would only dream about what the future would look like, the year 2020 was the future. And here we are heading into 2019…
For me it’s bitter sweet, I’m thankful for all my blessings, while missing all my loved ones who are gone. Thankful for all my memories, yet missing all those wonderful times… Thankful for my health, but wondering what the aging process will continue to look like…
A lot of wondering about the future, and that future is my present… 2019, for me sounds scary, a future year in the present… We have seen lots of change over the past 50 years, I guess like all the generations before us.
For me change doesn’t seem to get any easier, aging continues to creep up at a pace I’d prefer not to acknowledge.
Not sure how I got here, especially “into the future” so quickly. If only I could turn back time, and know what I know now… I can’t help but wonder how different life would have been.
The future has arrived, whether I like it or not!
Yesterday’s Nursery Rhymes
If London bridges is always falling down and three blind mice are running with a carving knife and there is a big bad wolf huffing and puffing about to blow your house down, Meanwhile Hansel and Gretel are lost in the woods and if your not a duck,duck,duck then you are goosed…and what’s up with Humpty Dumpty his name alone is calling him fat which isn’t politically correct and he has a great fall, not to mention he is broken and can’t be put back together again!!! Even Georgie Porgie made the girls cry!
I could go on and on… But you get the negative picture…
Well, all these nursery rhymes got me wondering this morning…
What in the world were we taught as children? No wonder the majority of my generation are on anti-depressants, see therapists and keep looking for some purpose in their life …
It’s time to change all that…
Being a new grandmother keeps me wondering… Maybe teaching children how to live life filled with Love, Awe and Wonder would give them a sense of creating a positive acceptance of others and themselves!
So how’s this for a new little nursery rhyme…
A little boy dressed in blue
Saw a sweet girl named Sue.
As she played looking around she heard laughter and all different sounds…
She wondered about the little boy in blue and want up to him and asked if he wanted to play too, she said “my name is Sue…”
They became friends that day
running around, enjoying their stay.
They played and played and they knew,
A feeling of love from making a new friend can do….
The moral…
Reach out and smile at someone new, you may make a new friend too!
Copyright A Weider
written 2015 posted 12/17
You’ve Touched My Life…
You’ve Touched My Life…
You’ve touched my life somehow, someway….
Not knowing what I’d learn
But open to receiving…
You’ve touch my life and for that I am truly thankful…
Thankful for your gifts,
Thankful for your lessons,
To accept, to love, to receive
Unconditionally…
Some lessons were more difficult than others, some came with joy and laughter, others came with tears…
But no matter…
Lessons were learned, my life was changed, forgiveness was received…
You’ve touched my life and given me so many gifts…
I’ve learned so much from you my friend…
And for that I am truly thankful ❤️
A.Weider
12/4/17
Just One More Hug…
Just One More Hug, has been the cry of my heart. Today it’s been two years since my dad has passed away. A day, a memory I will never forget. If only I could have one more hug… if only I was there to hold his hand, makes me wonder if his passing would hurt any less… I left the night I should have stayed, and I left many nights I didn’t need to stay…. and yet the pain within overwhelms my heart. Those words of comfort from others, don’t quite comfort my heart at this point, I know time will ease my pain. The connection of this little girl to her daddy was beyond words… and for that connection I am so very blessed and thankful to have had something so special with a man I called dad…. He is missed everyday… and today it’s been two years since I heard those dreaded words over the car phone as I was almost to St Ann’s… I just didn’t make it in time… if only I had stayed, if only I had one more hug… I miss you daddy, I miss hugging you….
Thank you dad for all your love and all the precious memories you’ve left behind… you’ve given this little girl a mind filled with love, awe and wonder…. ❤️
Guard Rail
A treasured written memory from 2015…
My Dads Guard Rail …
Taking my patents to their doctor appointment is always a adventure!!! Today was no exception. As they started to check their weight my dad started to list to the right and he grabbed the hand rail…. I realized he left his cane in the waiting area…
As I retrieved it from the waiting room, he had made it all the way down the hall, holding the wall hand rail. Once in the room he looked at me and said “if we had those guard rails in the house I wouldn’t need my cane…” I laughed because of his reference to guard rails…
If that wasn’t funny enough.
The nurses name was Valentino. My dad ask if she was a February 14th birthday baby which she replied ” no it’s just a popular Ukrainian name” meanwhile mom said
“Bill what did you say” my dad replied ” Marie, Valentino is Ukrainian” to which she said ” what did you say Bill?” Dad said “Marie she’s from Hungry”
” Hungry?, are you hungry Bill?” It was so funny…
Thank you Mom and dad for all your love and support over all these years…
Enough is Enough!
I’ve sat back and watched as our country has accepted bullies as role models… from Comiedians to politicians. It seems to be ok to be a bully these days… which makes me sick.
We are forced to decided between two presidential canidites, neither of whom can be trusted, and they are our only options… How is that possible? Ones worse than the other… neither will be great! And as a country divided, we have become a joke to the rest of the world…
It’s not ok to segregate, and yet we have a movement doing just that! The TRUTH is “All lives Matter…” not just one race, because we are all of One race, The Human Race… when will the insanity stop?
I’m beginning to bury my head in the sand. I’m so disappointed in mankind right now. Whatever did happen to the “kind” in mankind? We are at a fork in the road once again. It’s going to take a lot of individual effort to keep the “kind” in mankind… it’s up to each of us as part of the human race to show love, acceptance and Kindness to each other… and it can be done…. Each one of us needs to stop the gossip, judgement, criticizing, belittling spirit that is in our human nature and focus on love and acceptance…
As I read the “tweets” (and I don’t go out of my way to read them, they are all over the social media) I’m reminded of this bullish world we live in and I personally have had enough! I choose Love and acceptance…
What do you choose? And when will you have had Enough?
Enough is Enough!
Living life in love, awe and wonder ❤️
Missing What Was…
“Expressing ones feelings isn’t always bad… Embracing ones new reality can be difficult at times… And counting ones blessings is essential in order to overcome grief and see the light that is waiting at the end of life’s tunnel…”
Love and Acceptance
I can’t help but wonder about love and acceptance… Two words filled with raw emotions that I believe if truly embraced could change this world…
I’ve had the opportunity to choose both… Love others and accept everyone… There are those who don’t want to be loved and there is nothing you can do to help them accept love them… Loving those who live in a world of “unloveableness” may be difficult at times… It’s then when acceptance of others plays its part! Love and acceptance seems to go hand and hand…
I often wonder about this world and how simple it would be to love and accept each other… A world filled with tolerance… Imagine that!
I’m not saying we wouldn’t have feelings of discourse or even knowing we all are not going to embrace everyone… But to put our egos aside and to decide to live in a world of acceptance…
It’s hard to watch all the turmoil swirling around the world today. From politics to gender bathroom decisions, unforginess of others to judging someone who differs from our own belief system… There seems to be so much wasted time and energy! A simple rule to remember: We are all the same…
When I stop and wonder about my own lack of love and acceptance in the past (or fall into its trap now) I’m saddened by all the wasted moments in time that could have been used for good…
Growing towards love and acceptance is my focus as the years pass on… I pray it’s the focus of many others too…
Imagine a world filled with love and acceptance… the sky is the limit for total tolerance of each other!
Living in love,awe and wonder…